It didn’t take long for me to realize I was in trouble
Only two weeks after the devastating loss of my husband I knew I was in way over my head. What was even more maddening was the fact that I didn’t ask to be in this position. I had no warning, preparation time or readiness plan in place.
This traumatic event was dumped in my lap and I had to sort it out real fast.
Looking back, I guess I did okay. I mean the kids and I got through but when I read my journal from back then, I realize just how vulnerable I was. Grief taps into complicated emotions that are both impractical and unexplainable. The rollercoaster ride can leave a hurting heart feeling perplexed and full of despair.
Logic tells you that time heals all wounds and you’ll be fine after a while.
Two Weeks After a Devastating Loss – I’m Good, No I’m Not!
One minute I was fine and somewhat strong. Folks would say I was getting through pretty well. They’d even tell me how proud they were of me for coping with such difficult circumstances.
The next minute I was a puddle of tears and memories, the epitome of extreme brokenness and confusion.
It was hard for me to come to terms that my time on earth with David was gone. All I had left were memories, precious indeed, but enough to last for the rest of my life? Only time will uncover the answer to that question. In the meantime, all I knew for sure was that I wasn’t ready to say good-bye.
Time and time again I turned to God and asked Him for comfort and strength. I asked my friends and family to continue praying for me so the long dark nights wouldn’t overwhelm me. I turned to scriptures like Jeremiah 31:13 and Psalm 91:15. These were small treasures of God’s Word to comfort and keep me in peace.
My prayer during the hard days was simple:
Are you dealing with a devastating loss that you just can’t overcome?
I so understand! Why don’t you email me and tell me about it. I’d love to pray for you!
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Thanks for walking through the journey with me. I’m really glad you’re here!